Totally gutted 

Published April 12, 2015 by Bizzimummy

For once a post about myself and perhaps a rant.

I have been feeling low for a while. My long term partner left 8 weeks ago to stay at his mums. Apparently we wasn’t getting on – which is true in parts and apparently I also told him to go- again true! 

Anyway I thought a little break may do us good, despite being a little upset. How wrong could I be.

I had suspicions he was cheating. He added some barmaid on facebook who works in his local pub and I immediately got suspicious but he said nothing was going on and like a fool I believed.

Yesterday thanks to my impressive tech skills I discover he was cheating for months. Messages and kisses and sordid details from dates we were together.

Gutted, so gutted and annoyed and angry and upset. He’s my 2 year olds dad or meant to be so how can he do this to both me and her. I mean what have I done wrong to be treated like total crap? 

My heart is broken n I just don’t feel good at all. Last Saturday my daughter Keira should be 4 years old but instead she died at 10 hours old and Monday 13th April will be 4 years since we buried her. 

Feeling so depressed. Love my 3 babies so much but so wish I could be happy.

Sorry for the rant! 

5 comments on “Totally gutted 

  • I am a man, but it can be gutting for us as well – You should just pull yourself together and forget about him – if you take a break away go with a good friend (if you can get rid of kids for a few days) – time away to forget your problems is a big healer, I know I found that.
    I hope you feel better in yourself soon

    Spencer

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  • big hugs huni. I can’t pretend to know how you feel about all of this but I sure know how it feels to find out a long term partner is cheating. You are the most important person along with your children so never apologise for needing to shout out. If I can help in any way at all no matter how big or small please ask..we may only know each other online but I will stand with you

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