This Christmas was spent with the 4 of us at home. Although the kids loved it with lots of new toys and presents. I couldn’t help but feel alone. No family came to visit and 3 days on and still no one. Tho I appreciate some of them had plans, my mother certainly didn’t and chose other’s over her own daughter and grandkids. I haven’t seen my dad in 12 years but tried to make the effort via cards and txts but still notbing. I have been feeling so depressed and down and the tears just seem to roll. This has been ongoing for months since the break up but gets worse every day and especially so as its Christmas. I hate being so alone and Thursday/Friday brings new year but no plans or partying or family buffets for me just stuck in this prison with no one.
I so wish there was some way out of this for me but I have be here for my kids. So I do my best to try get up each day and sit through the loneliness maybe hoping my family will come